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Meanwhile, my mind began knitting itself back together. Gradually, my awareness started to return.
但是同一时间，我的意识开始逐渐缓慢复原，慢慢的，我的意识开始恢复了。
But no one realized that I had come back to life. I was aware of everything, just like any normal person.
但是没有人意识到我已经恢复了意识。我可以意识到一切，就像一个完全正常的人一样。
I could see and understand everything, but I couldn't find a way to let anybody know.
我可以看见也可以理解一切，但我不知道如何让别人知道。
My personality was entombed within a seemingly silent body, a vibrant mind hidden in plain sight within a chrysalis.
我的意识像是被埋葬在一个看起来寂静的身体里，活跃的内心被蛹束缚起来。
The stark reality hit me that I was going to spend the rest of my life locked inside myself, totally alone.
残酷的现实狠狠的冲击了我，我很可能在有生之年只能封锁在自己的身体里了，完完全全孤身一人。
I was trapped with only my thoughts for company. I would never be rescued. No one would ever show me tenderness.
我被困住了，只有我的思考作伴。我永远不会被解救，不会有人对我温柔以待。
I would never talk to a friend. No one would ever love me. I had no dreams, no hope, nothing to look forward to.
不会有朋友与我热心交谈，不会有人把我视作珍宝。我没有梦想，没有希望，没有任何事情供我去期待。
Well, nothing pleasant. I lived in fear, and, to put it bluntly, was waiting for death to finally release me,
没有任何可以留恋的。我活在恐惧中，而且坦白地说，我甚至期待死亡的最终解脱，
expecting to die all alone in a care home. I don't know if it's truly possible to express in words what it's like not to be able to communicate.
孤独地在我心爱的家中等死。我不知道用语言表达，这种无法用语言表达的感觉是否现实。
Your personality appears to vanish into a heavy fog and all of your emotions and desires are constricted, stifled and muted within you.
就像你的意识看起来将要迷失在浓雾中，你所有的感情和欲望在身体里被约束、扼杀、沉寂。
For me, the worst was the feeling of utter powerlessness. I simply existed.
对我而言，最可怕的是极度无力的感觉。我在事实上是存在的。
It's a very dark place to find yourself because in a sense, you have vanished. Other people controlled every aspect of my life.
但是你只能在非常昏暗的地方才能找到自己，因为在某种程度上，你已经消失不见。别人控制了我生命的每一个方面。
They decided what I ate and when. Whether I was laid on my side or strapped into my wheelchair.
他们决定我吃什么、什么时候吃。我是被铺放在一侧还是被绑在我的轮椅上。
I often spent my days positioned in front of the TV watching Barney reruns.
我经常被放置在电视机前，看Barney在电视上放了一遍又一遍。
I think because Barney is so happy and jolly, and I absolutely wasn't, it made it so much worse.
我想可能是因为Barney是那么的欢快活泼，而我却与它完全相反，这让事情变得更加糟糕。
