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“Just go.” He had me park at the south end of the street. He reached in his coat pocket and handed me a set of keys. “There,” he said, pointing to the car in front of us. It was an old model Ford, long and wide, a dark color I couldn’t discern in the moon light. “It needs painting, and I’ll have one of the guys at the station put in new shocks, but it runs.”“只管开过去,”他让我停在街道的南端。他把手伸进外衣的口袋,掏给我一串钥匙,“那边。”他指着停在我们前面的一辆轿车。那是一辆旧款的福特,又长又宽,车身很暗,在月光下我辨认不出是什么颜色。“它得烤漆,我会让加油站的伙计换上新的避震器,但它还能开。”
I took the keys, stunned. I looked from him to the car.我看着钥匙,惊呆了。我看看他,看看轿车。
“You’ll need it to go to college,” he said.“你上大学需要一辆车。”他说。
I took his hand in mine. Squeezed it. My eyes were tearing over and I was glad for the shadows that hid our faces. “Thank you, Baba.”我捧起他的手,紧紧握住。泪水从我眼里涌出来,我庆幸阴影笼罩了我们的面庞。“谢谢你,爸爸。”
We got out and sat inside the Ford. It was a Grand Torino. Navy blue, Baba said. I drove it around the block, testing the brakes, the radio, the turn signals. I parked it in the lot of our apartment building and shut off the engine. “Tashakor, Baba jan,” I said. I wanted to say more, tell him how touched I was by his act of kindness, how much I appreciated all that he had done for me, all that he was still doing. But I knew I’d embarrass him. “Tashakor,” I repeated instead.我们下车,坐进福特车。那是一辆“大都灵”。“海军蓝。”爸爸说。我绕着街区开,试试刹车、收音机、转向灯。我把它停在我们那栋楼的停车场,熄了引擎。“谢谢你,亲爱的爸爸。”我说。我意犹未尽,想告诉他,他慈祥的行为让我多么感动,我多么感激他过去和现在为我所做的一切。但我知道那会让他不好意思,“谢谢。”我只是重复了一次。
He smiled and leaned back against the headrest, his forehead almost touching the ceiling. We didn’t say anything. Just sat in the dark, listened to the tink-tink of the engine cooling, the wail of a siren in the distance. Then Baba rolled his head toward me. “I wish Hassan had been with us today,” he said.他微微一笑,靠在头枕上,他的前额几乎碰到顶篷。我们什么也没说,静静坐在黑暗中,听着引擎冷却的“嘀嘀”声,远处传来一阵警笛的鸣叫。然后爸爸将头转向我,“要是哈桑今天跟我们在一起就好了。”
A pair of steel hands closed around my windpipe at the sound of Hassan’s name. I rolled down the window. Waited for the steel hands to loosen their grip.听到哈桑的名字,我的脖子好像被一对铁手掐住了。我把车窗摇下,等待那双铁手松开。
I WOULD ENROLL in junior college classes in the fall, I told Baba the day after graduation. He was drinking cold black tea and chewing cardamom seeds, his personal trusted antidote for hang over headaches.毕业典礼隔日,我告诉爸爸,秋天我就要去专科学校注册了。他正在喝冷却的红茶,嚼着豆蔻子,他自己用来治头痛的偏方。
“I think I’ll major in English,” I said. I winced inside, waiting for his reply.“我想我会主修英文。”我说,内心忐忑,等着他的回答。
“English?”“英文?”
“Creative writing.”“创作。”
He considered this. Sipped his tea. “Stories, you mean. You’ll make up stories.” I looked down at my feet.他想了想,啜他的红茶,“故事,你是说,你要写故事?”我低头看着自己的双脚。
“They pay for that, making up stories?”“写故事能赚钱吗?”
“If you’re good,” I said. “And if you get discovered.”“如果你写得好,”我说,“而且又被人发掘的话。”
“How likely is that, getting discovered?”“被人发掘?机会有多大?”
“It happens,” I said.“有机会的。”我说。
He nodded. “And what will you do while you wait to get good and get discovered? How will you earn money? If you marry, how will you support your khanum?”他点点头。“那你在写得好和被人发掘之前准备干什么呢?你怎么赚钱?要是结婚了,你怎么撑起自己的家庭?”
I couldn’t lift my eyes to meet his. “I’ll... find a job.”我不敢看着他的眼睛,“我会……找份工作。”
“Oh,” he said. “Wah wah! So, if I understand, you’ll study several years to earn a degree, then you’ll get a chatti job like mine, one you could just as easily land today, on the small chance that your degree might someday help you get... discovered.” He took a deep breath and sipped his tea. Grunted something about medical school, law school, and “real work.”“哦!”他说,“哇!哇!这么说,如果我没理解错,你将会花好几年,拿个学位,然后你会找一份像我这样卑微的工作,一份你今天可以轻易找到的工作,就为渺茫的机会,等待你拿的学位也许某天会帮助你……被人发掘。”他深深呼吸,啜他的红茶,咕哝地说着什么医学院、法学院,还有“真正的工作”。
My cheeks burned and guilt coursed through me, the guilt of indulging myself at the expense of his ulcer, his black fingernails and aching wrists. But I would stand my ground, I decided. I didn’t want to sacrifice for Baba anymore. The last time I had done that, I had damned myself.我脸上发烧,一阵罪恶感涌上心头。我很负疚,我的放纵是他的溃疡、黑指甲和酸痛的手腕换来的。但我会坚持自己的立场,我决定了。我不想再为爸爸牺牲了。这是最后一次了,我咒骂自己。
Baba sighed and, this time, tossed a whole handful of car damom seeds in his mouth.爸爸叹气,这一次,扔了一大把豆蔻子到嘴里。

“Just go.” He had me park at the south end of the street. He reached in his coat pocket and handed me a set of keys. “There,” he said, pointing to the car in front of us. It was an old model Ford, long and wide, a dark color I couldn’t discern in the moon light. “It needs painting, and I’ll have one of the guys at the station put in new shocks, but it runs.”
I took the keys, stunned. I looked from him to the car.
“You’ll need it to go to college,” he said.
I took his hand in mine. Squeezed it. My eyes were tearing over and I was glad for the shadows that hid our faces. “Thank you, Baba.”
We got out and sat inside the Ford. It was a Grand Torino. Navy blue, Baba said. I drove it around the block, testing the brakes, the radio, the turn signals. I parked it in the lot of our apartment building and shut off the engine. “Tashakor, Baba jan,” I said. I wanted to say more, tell him how touched I was by his act of kindness, how much I appreciated all that he had done for me, all that he was still doing. But I knew I’d embarrass him. “Tashakor,” I repeated instead.
He smiled and leaned back against the headrest, his forehead almost touching the ceiling. We didn’t say anything. Just sat in the dark, listened to the tink-tink of the engine cooling, the wail of a siren in the distance. Then Baba rolled his head toward me. “I wish Hassan had been with us today,” he said.
A pair of steel hands closed around my windpipe at the sound of Hassan’s name. I rolled down the window. Waited for the steel hands to loosen their grip.
I WOULD ENROLL in junior college classes in the fall, I told Baba the day after graduation. He was drinking cold black tea and chewing cardamom seeds, his personal trusted antidote for hang over headaches.
“I think I’ll major in English,” I said. I winced inside, waiting for his reply.
“English?”
“Creative writing.”
He considered this. Sipped his tea. “Stories, you mean. You’ll make up stories.” I looked down at my feet.
“They pay for that, making up stories?”
“If you’re good,” I said. “And if you get discovered.”
“How likely is that, getting discovered?”
“It happens,” I said.
He nodded. “And what will you do while you wait to get good and get discovered? How will you earn money? If you marry, how will you support your khanum?”
I couldn’t lift my eyes to meet his. “I’ll... find a job.”
“Oh,” he said. “Wah wah! So, if I understand, you’ll study several years to earn a degree, then you’ll get a chatti job like mine, one you could just as easily land today, on the small chance that your degree might someday help you get... discovered.” He took a deep breath and sipped his tea. Grunted something about medical school, law school, and “real work.”
My cheeks burned and guilt coursed through me, the guilt of indulging myself at the expense of his ulcer, his black fingernails and aching wrists. But I would stand my ground, I decided. I didn’t want to sacrifice for Baba anymore. The last time I had done that, I had damned myself.
Baba sighed and, this time, tossed a whole handful of car damom seeds in his mouth.


“只管开过去,”他让我停在街道的南端。他把手伸进外衣的口袋,掏给我一串钥匙,“那边。”他指着停在我们前面的一辆轿车。那是一辆旧款的福特,又长又宽,车身很暗,在月光下我辨认不出是什么颜色。“它得烤漆,我会让加油站的伙计换上新的避震器,但它还能开。”
我看着钥匙,惊呆了。我看看他,看看轿车。
“你上大学需要一辆车。”他说。
我捧起他的手,紧紧握住。泪水从我眼里涌出来,我庆幸阴影笼罩了我们的面庞。“谢谢你,爸爸。”
我们下车,坐进福特车。那是一辆“大都灵”。“海军蓝。”爸爸说。我绕着街区开,试试刹车、收音机、转向灯。我把它停在我们那栋楼的停车场,熄了引擎。“谢谢你,亲爱的爸爸。”我说。我意犹未尽,想告诉他,他慈祥的行为让我多么感动,我多么感激他过去和现在为我所做的一切。但我知道那会让他不好意思,“谢谢。”我只是重复了一次。
他微微一笑,靠在头枕上,他的前额几乎碰到顶篷。我们什么也没说,静静坐在黑暗中,听着引擎冷却的“嘀嘀”声,远处传来一阵警笛的鸣叫。然后爸爸将头转向我,“要是哈桑今天跟我们在一起就好了。”
听到哈桑的名字,我的脖子好像被一对铁手掐住了。我把车窗摇下,等待那双铁手松开。
毕业典礼隔日,我告诉爸爸,秋天我就要去专科学校注册了。他正在喝冷却的红茶,嚼着豆蔻子,他自己用来治头痛的偏方。
“我想我会主修英文。”我说,内心忐忑,等着他的回答。
“英文?”
“创作。”
他想了想,啜他的红茶,“故事,你是说,你要写故事?”我低头看着自己的双脚。
“写故事能赚钱吗?”
“如果你写得好,”我说,“而且又被人发掘的话。”
“被人发掘?机会有多大?”
“有机会的。”我说。
他点点头。“那你在写得好和被人发掘之前准备干什么呢?你怎么赚钱?要是结婚了,你怎么撑起自己的家庭?”
我不敢看着他的眼睛,“我会……找份工作。”
“哦!”他说,“哇!哇!这么说,如果我没理解错,你将会花好几年,拿个学位,然后你会找一份像我这样卑微的工作,一份你今天可以轻易找到的工作,就为渺茫的机会,等待你拿的学位也许某天会帮助你……被人发掘。”他深深呼吸,啜他的红茶,咕哝地说着什么医学院、法学院,还有“真正的工作”。
我脸上发烧,一阵罪恶感涌上心头。我很负疚,我的放纵是他的溃疡、黑指甲和酸痛的手腕换来的。但我会坚持自己的立场,我决定了。我不想再为爸爸牺牲了。这是最后一次了,我咒骂自己。
爸爸叹气,这一次,扔了一大把豆蔻子到嘴里。
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