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TWENTY-FIVE第二十五章
They won’t let me in.他们不让我进去。
I see them wheel him through a set of double doors and I follow. I burst through the doors, the smell of iodine and peroxide hits me, but all I have time to see is two men wearing surgical caps and a woman in green huddling over a gurney. A white sheet spills over the side of the gurney and brushes against grimy checkered tiles. A pair of small, bloody feet poke out from under the sheet and I see that the big toenail on the left foot is chipped. Then a tall, thickset man in blue presses his palm against my chest and he’s pushing me back out through the doors, his wedding band cold on my skin. I shove forward and I curse him, but he says you cannot be here, he says it in English, his voice polite but firm. “You must wait,” he says, leading me back to the waiting area, and now the double doors swing shut behind him with a sigh and all I see is the top of the men’s surgical caps through the doors’ narrow rectangular windows.我看见他们推着他,穿过一些双层门,我跟在后面,冲进一扇又一扇的门,闻到碘酒和消毒水的味道,但我所来得及看到的,是两个戴着手术帽的男人和一个穿着绿色衣服的女人围在轮床之上。我看见白色床单从轮床侧面垂落,拂着污秽的花格地砖。一双鲜血淋漓的小脚从床单下面伸出来,我看见左脚大脚趾的指甲被削掉了。接着有个穿蓝色衣服的高壮汉子用手掌压住我的胸口,将我从门口往后推,我的皮肤能感觉到他那冰凉的结婚戒指。我向前挣扎,咒骂他,但他用英语说你不能留在这儿,声音礼貌而坚决。“你必须等。”他说,领着我回到等候。现在双层门在他身后砰地关上,透过门上狭窄的长方形窗口,我只见到那男人的手术帽。
He leaves me in a wide, windowless corridor crammed with people sitting on metallic folding chairs set along the walls, others on the thin frayed carpet. I want to scream again, and I remember the last time I felt this way, riding with Baba in the tank of the fuel truck, buried in the dark with the other refugees. I want to tear myself from this place, from this reality rise up like a cloud and float away, melt into this humid summer night and dissolve somewhere far, over the hills. But I am here, my legs blocks of concrete, my lungs empty of air, my throat burning. There will be no floating away. There will be no other reality tonight. I close my eyes and my nostrils fill with the smells of the corridor, sweat and ammonia, rubbing alcohol and curry. On the ceiling, moths fling themselves at the dull gray light tubes running the length of the corridor and I hear the papery flapping of their wings. I hear chatter, muted sobbing, sniffling, someone moaning, someone else sighing, elevator doors opening with a bing, the operator paging someone in Urdu.他把我留在一条宽大的走廊上,没有窗,墙边的金属折叠椅上坐满了人,还有人坐在薄薄的破地毯上。我又想尖叫。我想起上次有这种感觉,是跟爸爸在油罐车的油罐里面,埋在黑暗和其他难民之间。我想把自己撕成碎片,离开这个地方,离开现实世界,像云朵那样升起,飘荡而去,融进湿热的夏夜,在某个遥远的地方,在山丘上方飘散。但我就在这儿,双脚沉重如水泥块,肺里空气一泻而空,喉咙发热。无法随风而去。今晚没有别的世界。我合上双眼,鼻子里塞满走廊的种种味道:汗水和氨水的气味、药用酒精和咖喱的气味。整条走廊的天花板上布满昏暗的灯管,飞蛾围绕,我听见它们拍打翅膀的声音。我听见谈话声、默默的啜泣声、擤鼻声;有人在呻吟,有人在哀叹,电梯门砰地一声打开,操作员用乌尔都语呼喊某人。
I open my eyes again and I know what I have to do. I look around, my heart a jackhammer in my chest, blood thudding in my ears. There is a dark little supply room to my left. In it, I find what I need. It will do. I grab a white bedsheet from the pile of folded linens and carry it back to the corridor. I see a nurse talking to a policeman near the restroom. I take the nurse’s elbow and pull, I want to know which way is west. She doesn’t understand and the lines on her face deepen when she frowns. My throat aches and my eyes sting with sweat, each breath is like inhaling fire, and I think I am weeping. I ask again. I beg. The policeman is the one who points.I throw my makeshift _jai-namaz_, my prayer rug, on the floor and I get on my knees, lower my forehead to the ground, my tears soaking through the sheet. I bow to the west. Then I remember I haven’t prayed for over fifteen years. I have long forgotten the words. But it doesn’t matter, I will utter those few words I still remember: ??La iflaha ii Allah,Muhammad u rasul ullah. There is no God but Allah and Muhammad is His messenger. I see now that Baba was wrong, there is a God, there always had been. I see Him here, in the eyes of the people in this corridor of desperation. This is the real house of God, this is where those who have lost God will find Him, not the white masjid with its bright diamond lights and towering minarets. There is a God, there has to be, and now I will pray, I will pray that He forgive that I have neglected Him all of these years, forgive that I have betrayed, lied, and sinned with impunity only to turn to Him now in my hour of need, I pray that He is as merciful, benevolent, and gracious as His book says He is. I bow to the west and kiss the ground and promise that I will do _zakat_, I will do _namaz_, I will fast during Ramadan and when Ramadan has passed I will go on fasting, I will commit to memory every last word of His holy book, and I will set on a pilgrimage to that sweltering city in the desert and bow before the Ka’bah too. I will do all of this and I will think of Him every day from this day on if He only grants me this one wish: My hands are stained with Hassan’s blood; I pray God doesn’t let them get stained with the blood of his boy too.我再次睁开眼,知道自己该做些什么。我四周环顾,心脏怦怦地在胸口跳动,耳朵听得见血液流动的声音。我左边有间又暗又小的储藏室,我在里面找到自己想要的东西。用它就好了。我从一堆折叠好的白色尼龙床单中抽出一条,带回走廊。我看见护士在休息室附近和一名警察交谈。我拉拉那名护士的手肘,问她哪个方位是西边。她没听懂,眉头一皱,脸色的皱纹更深了。我喉咙发痛,汗水刺痛了双眼,每次呼吸都像在喷火,我想我在哭泣。我又问一声,苦苦哀求,警察把方向指给我。我在地面铺开那张滥竽充数的祷告毯,双膝跪倒,头磕在地上,泪水湿透了床单。我朝西弯下腰,那时我才想起自己已经不止十五年没祷告过了,早巳把祷词忘得一干二净。但这没有关系,我会说出依然记得的片言只语:惟安拉是真主,穆罕默德是他的使者。现在我明白爸爸错了,真主真的存在,一直存在。我看到他在这里,从这条绝望的走廊的人群眼里见到。这里才是真主真正的住所,正是在这里,而非在那些发出钻石般明亮光芒的尖塔耸立的清真寺,只有那些失去真主的人们才能找到真主。真主真的存在,他必须存在,而如今我将祷告,我会祈祷他原谅我这些年来对他的漠然不觉,原谅我曾经背叛、说谎、作恶而未受惩罚,只有在我的危难时刻才想起他。我祈祷他如经书记载的那样慈悲、仁爱、宽宏。我朝西方磕头,亲吻地面,承诺我将会施天课,将会每天祷告,承诺我在斋月期间将会素食,而当斋月结束,我会继续素食,我将会熟背他的圣书中每个字,我将会到沙漠中那座湿热难当的城市去朝圣,也会在天房之前磕头。我将会践行所有这些,从今日后,将会每天想起他,只要他实现我的这个愿望:我的手已经沾上哈桑的血,我祈求真主,别让它们也沾上这个小男孩的血。
I hear a whimpering and realize it is mine, my lips are salty with the tears trickling down my face. I feel the eyes of everyone in this corridor on me and still I bow to the west. I pray. I pray that my sins have not caught up with me the way I’d always feared they would.我听到呜咽声,意识到正是自己发出来的,泪水从脸上汩汩而下,流过嘴唇,让我尝到咸味。我感到走廊上每个人都在看着我,而我依然朝西方磕头。我祈祷。我祈祷别以这种我向来害怕的方式惩罚我的罪行。
TWENTY-FIVE
They won’t let me in.
I see them wheel him through a set of double doors and I follow. I burst through the doors, the smell of iodine and peroxide hits me, but all I have time to see is two men wearing surgical caps and a woman in green huddling over a gurney. A white sheet spills over the side of the gurney and brushes against grimy checkered tiles. A pair of small, bloody feet poke out from under the sheet and I see that the big toenail on the left foot is chipped. Then a tall, thickset man in blue presses his palm against my chest and he’s pushing me back out through the doors, his wedding band cold on my skin. I shove forward and I curse him, but he says you cannot be here, he says it in English, his voice polite but firm. “You must wait,” he says, leading me back to the waiting area, and now the double doors swing shut behind him with a sigh and all I see is the top of the men’s surgical caps through the doors’ narrow rectangular windows.
He leaves me in a wide, windowless corridor crammed with people sitting on metallic folding chairs set along the walls, others on the thin frayed carpet. I want to scream again, and I remember the last time I felt this way, riding with Baba in the tank of the fuel truck, buried in the dark with the other refugees. I want to tear myself from this place, from this reality rise up like a cloud and float away, melt into this humid summer night and dissolve somewhere far, over the hills. But I am here, my legs blocks of concrete, my lungs empty of air, my throat burning. There will be no floating away. There will be no other reality tonight. I close my eyes and my nostrils fill with the smells of the corridor, sweat and ammonia, rubbing alcohol and curry. On the ceiling, moths fling themselves at the dull gray light tubes running the length of the corridor and I hear the papery flapping of their wings. I hear chatter, muted sobbing, sniffling, someone moaning, someone else sighing, elevator doors opening with a bing, the operator paging someone in Urdu.
I open my eyes again and I know what I have to do. I look around, my heart a jackhammer in my chest, blood thudding in my ears. There is a dark little supply room to my left. In it, I find what I need. It will do. I grab a white bedsheet from the pile of folded linens and carry it back to the corridor. I see a nurse talking to a policeman near the restroom. I take the nurse’s elbow and pull, I want to know which way is west. She doesn’t understand and the lines on her face deepen when she frowns. My throat aches and my eyes sting with sweat, each breath is like inhaling fire, and I think I am weeping. I ask again. I beg. The policeman is the one who points.I throw my makeshift _jai-namaz_, my prayer rug, on the floor and I get on my knees, lower my forehead to the ground, my tears soaking through the sheet. I bow to the west. Then I remember I haven’t prayed for over fifteen years. I have long forgotten the words. But it doesn’t matter, I will utter those few words I still remember: ??La iflaha ii Allah,Muhammad u rasul ullah. There is no God but Allah and Muhammad is His messenger. I see now that Baba was wrong, there is a God, there always had been. I see Him here, in the eyes of the people in this corridor of desperation. This is the real house of God, this is where those who have lost God will find Him, not the white masjid with its bright diamond lights and towering minarets. There is a God, there has to be, and now I will pray, I will pray that He forgive that I have neglected Him all of these years, forgive that I have betrayed, lied, and sinned with impunity only to turn to Him now in my hour of need, I pray that He is as merciful, benevolent, and gracious as His book says He is. I bow to the west and kiss the ground and promise that I will do _zakat_, I will do _namaz_, I will fast during Ramadan and when Ramadan has passed I will go on fasting, I will commit to memory every last word of His holy book, and I will set on a pilgrimage to that sweltering city in the desert and bow before the Ka’bah too. I will do all of this and I will think of Him every day from this day on if He only grants me this one wish: My hands are stained with Hassan’s blood; I pray God doesn’t let them get stained with the blood of his boy too.
I hear a whimpering and realize it is mine, my lips are salty with the tears trickling down my face. I feel the eyes of everyone in this corridor on me and still I bow to the west. I pray. I pray that my sins have not caught up with me the way I’d always feared they would.

第二十五章
他们不让我进去。
我看见他们推着他,穿过一些双层门,我跟在后面,冲进一扇又一扇的门,闻到碘酒和消毒水的味道,但我所来得及看到的,是两个戴着手术帽的男人和一个穿着绿色衣服的女人围在轮床之上。我看见白色床单从轮床侧面垂落,拂着污秽的花格地砖。一双鲜血淋漓的小脚从床单下面伸出来,我看见左脚大脚趾的指甲被削掉了。接着有个穿蓝色衣服的高壮汉子用手掌压住我的胸口,将我从门口往后推,我的皮肤能感觉到他那冰凉的结婚戒指。我向前挣扎,咒骂他,但他用英语说你不能留在这儿,声音礼貌而坚决。“你必须等。”他说,领着我回到等候。现在双层门在他身后砰地关上,透过门上狭窄的长方形窗口,我只见到那男人的手术帽。
他把我留在一条宽大的走廊上,没有窗,墙边的金属折叠椅上坐满了人,还有人坐在薄薄的破地毯上。我又想尖叫。我想起上次有这种感觉,是跟爸爸在油罐车的油罐里面,埋在黑暗和其他难民之间。我想把自己撕成碎片,离开这个地方,离开现实世界,像云朵那样升起,飘荡而去,融进湿热的夏夜,在某个遥远的地方,在山丘上方飘散。但我就在这儿,双脚沉重如水泥块,肺里空气一泻而空,喉咙发热。无法随风而去。今晚没有别的世界。我合上双眼,鼻子里塞满走廊的种种味道:汗水和氨水的气味、药用酒精和咖喱的气味。整条走廊的天花板上布满昏暗的灯管,飞蛾围绕,我听见它们拍打翅膀的声音。我听见谈话声、默默的啜泣声、擤鼻声;有人在呻吟,有人在哀叹,电梯门砰地一声打开,操作员用乌尔都语呼喊某人。
我再次睁开眼,知道自己该做些什么。我四周环顾,心脏怦怦地在胸口跳动,耳朵听得见血液流动的声音。我左边有间又暗又小的储藏室,我在里面找到自己想要的东西。用它就好了。我从一堆折叠好的白色尼龙床单中抽出一条,带回走廊。我看见护士在休息室附近和一名警察交谈。我拉拉那名护士的手肘,问她哪个方位是西边。她没听懂,眉头一皱,脸色的皱纹更深了。我喉咙发痛,汗水刺痛了双眼,每次呼吸都像在喷火,我想我在哭泣。我又问一声,苦苦哀求,警察把方向指给我。我在地面铺开那张滥竽充数的祷告毯,双膝跪倒,头磕在地上,泪水湿透了床单。我朝西弯下腰,那时我才想起自己已经不止十五年没祷告过了,早巳把祷词忘得一干二净。但这没有关系,我会说出依然记得的片言只语:惟安拉是真主,穆罕默德是他的使者。现在我明白爸爸错了,真主真的存在,一直存在。我看到他在这里,从这条绝望的走廊的人群眼里见到。这里才是真主真正的住所,正是在这里,而非在那些发出钻石般明亮光芒的尖塔耸立的清真寺,只有那些失去真主的人们才能找到真主。真主真的存在,他必须存在,而如今我将祷告,我会祈祷他原谅我这些年来对他的漠然不觉,原谅我曾经背叛、说谎、作恶而未受惩罚,只有在我的危难时刻才想起他。我祈祷他如经书记载的那样慈悲、仁爱、宽宏。我朝西方磕头,亲吻地面,承诺我将会施天课,将会每天祷告,承诺我在斋月期间将会素食,而当斋月结束,我会继续素食,我将会熟背他的圣书中每个字,我将会到沙漠中那座湿热难当的城市去朝圣,也会在天房之前磕头。我将会践行所有这些,从今日后,将会每天想起他,只要他实现我的这个愿望:我的手已经沾上哈桑的血,我祈求真主,别让它们也沾上这个小男孩的血。
我听到呜咽声,意识到正是自己发出来的,泪水从脸上汩汩而下,流过嘴唇,让我尝到咸味。我感到走廊上每个人都在看着我,而我依然朝西方磕头。我祈祷。我祈祷别以这种我向来害怕的方式惩罚我的罪行。
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bow [bau]

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n. 弓
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pilgrimage ['pilgrimidʒ]

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n. 朝圣之旅,人生历程 vi. 朝圣

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tear [tiə]

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n. 眼泪,(撕破的)洞或裂缝,撕扯
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chatter ['tʃætə]

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n. 饶舌,啁啾,喋喋不休地谈,(小溪的)潺潺流水声,(

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