Drop Out

退学

Jobs quickly became bored with college. He liked being at Reed, just not taking the required classes. In fact he was surprised when he found out that, for all of its hippie aura, there were strict course requirements. When Wozniak came to visit, Jobs waved his schedule at him and complained, “They are making me take all these courses.” Woz replied, “Yes, that’s what they do in college.” Jobs refused to go to the classes he was assigned and instead went to the ones he wanted, such as a dance class where he could enjoy both the creativity and the chance to meet girls. “I would never have refused to take the courses you were supposed to, that’s a difference in our personality,” Wozniak marveled.

乔布斯很快厌倦了大学生活。他喜欢待在里德学院，只是不想去上那些必修课。实际上，他惊讶地发现，尽管里德学院有着嬉皮士的氛围，但也有非常严格的课程要求，学生需要阅读《伊利亚特》这样的作品，还要研究伯罗奔尼撒战争史。沃兹来访的时候，乔布斯挥舞着自己的课程表抱怨说：“学校强迫我上这么多课程。”沃兹回答：“是的，大学就是这样的，他们会给你指定一些课程。”乔布斯拒绝去上那些必修课，而是去上自己感兴趣的课，比如舞蹈课，在那里他既可以享受艺术，还有机会见到女孩子。“我绝不会不去上必修课，这就是我们性格上的差异。”沃兹尼亚克感到十分诧异。

Jobs also began to feel guilty, he later said, about spending so much of his parents’ money on an education that did not seem worthwhile. “All of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition,” he recounted in a famous commencement address at Stanford. “I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out okay.”

乔布斯后来说，把父母的钱花在了根本不值那么多钱的教育上，他也开始有负罪感。“我那工薪阶层的父母省下来的钱全花在学费上了，”他在那场著名的斯坦福大学毕业典礼演讲中提到，“我不知道自己想要千什么，也不知道大学能如何帮我搞清楚自己的人生目标。但我却在花着父母的毕生积蓄。所以我决定退学，我也相信，一切都会顺利。”

He didn’t actually want to leave Reed; he just wanted to quit paying tuition and taking classes that didn’t interest him. Remarkably, Reed tolerated that. “He had a very inquiring mind that was enormously attractive,” said the dean of students, Jack Dudman. “He refused to accept automatically received truths, and he wanted to examine everything himself.” Dudman allowed Jobs to audit classes and stay with friends in the dorms even after he stopped paying tuition.

他并不是真的想离开里德学院，他只是不想再付学费，也不想再去上那些提不起他兴趣的课程了。惊人的是，校方竟然容忍了这一切。“他有一颗渴求知识的心，这很让人感兴趣，”教导主任杰克·达德曼（JackDixdman）说，“他拒绝不动脑筋地接受事实，任何事情他都要亲自检验。”即使在乔布斯停止交学费之后，达德曼还是允许他旁听课程，并且可以继续待在宿舍和朋友们在一起。

“The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting,” he said. Among them was a calligraphy class that appealed to him after he saw posters on campus that were beautifully drawn. “I learned about serif and sans serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.”

“我一退学，就不用去上那些我不感兴趣的必修课了，我可以去上那些看起来有意思的课。”他说。这其中有一门书法课非常吸引他，因为他注意到校园里的大多数海报都画得很漂亮。“我学到了衬线字体和无衬线字体，怎样在不同的字母组合间调整其间距，以及怎样作出完美的版面设计。这其中所蕴涵的美、历史意味和艺术精妙之处是科学无法捕捉的，这让我陶醉。”

It was yet another example of Jobs consciously positioning himself at the intersection of the arts and technology. In all of his products, technology would be married to great design, elegance, human touches, and even romance. He would be in the fore of pushing friendly graphical user interfaces. The calligraphy course would become iconic in that regard. “If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it’s likely that no personal computer would have them.”

这也再一次证明，乔布斯总是有意识地将自己置身于艺术与科技的交汇处。在他所有的产品中，科技必定与完美的设计、外观、手感、精致、人性化甚至是浪漫结合在一起。他是追求友好图形用户界面的先锋。在这一方面，那门书法课程是意义非凡的。“如果我大学的时候从没有上过那门课，麦金塔计算机里绝不会有那么多种字形以及间距安排合理的字体。既然是Windows抄袭了Mac，那么很有可能所有个人电脑上也不会有这些。”

In the meantime Jobs eked out a bohemian existence on the fringes of Reed. He went barefoot most of the time, wearing sandals when it snowed. Elizabeth Holmes made meals for him, trying to keep up with his obsessive diets. He returned soda bottles for spare change, continued his treks to the free Sunday dinners at the Hare Krishna temple, and wore a down jacket in the heatless garage apartment he rented for $20 a month. When he needed money, he found work at the psychology department lab maintaining the electronic equipment that was used for animal behavior experiments. Occasionally Chrisann Brennan would come to visit. Their relationship sputtered along erratically. But mostly he tended to the stirrings of his own soul and personal quest for enlightenment.

在此期间，乔布斯在里德学院作为一名边缘人物，过着放荡不羁的生活。他大多数时间都光脚走路，下雪天的时候穿着凉鞋。伊丽莎白·霍姆斯为他做饭，努力照顾到他过分的饮食习惯。他会拿汽水瓶去换零钱，继续每个周日去哈雷·克里希纳寺吃免费的素食，穿着羽绒服住在他以每月20美元的价格祖下的没有供暧的车库房间里。他需要钱的时候，就去心理学系的实验室，维护那些用于动物行为实验的电子设备。克里斯安·布伦南也会偶尔来访，他们的关系时好时坏。但他的主要精力还是放在自己的心灵以及对个人觉悟的追求上了。

“I came of age at a magical time,” he reflected later. “Our consciousness was raised by Zen, and also by LSD.” Even later in life he would credit psychedelic drugs for making him more enlightened. “Taking LSD was a profound experience, one of the most important things in my life. LSD shows you that there’s another side to the coin, and you can’t remember it when it wears off, but you know it. It reinforced my sense of what was important—creating great things instead of making money, putting things back into the stream of history and of human consciousness as much as I could.”

“我当时身处一个神奇的时代，”他后来回忆说，“提升我们觉悟的是禅宗，还有迷幻药。”即便是后来，他依然赞扬致幻剂让自己得到了更多启发：“使用迷幻药是一段意义非凡的经历，也是我一生中最重要的事情之一。迷幻药让你看到硬币的另一面，当药效退去之后你就记不清楚了，但你知道有这么一回事。它让我更清楚什么是重要的——创造伟大的发明，而不是赚钱。应该尽我所能，将此生放回历史和人类思想的长河。”