I wish I had handled it differently. I could not see myself as a father then, so I didn’t face up to it. But when the test results showed she was my daughter, it’s not true that I doubted it. I agreed to support her until she was eighteen and give some money to Chrisann as well. I found a house in Palo Alto and fixed it up and let them live there rent-free. Her mother found her great schools which I paid for. I tried to do the right thing. But if I could do it over, I would do a better job.

我真希望当时以另一种方式处理整件事情。那时候我还没有准备好当一个父亲，所以没能勇敢地面对。但是当亲子鉴定结果显示她是我女儿的时候，我绝没有怀疑过。我同意提供她的抚养费直到她18岁，还给了克里斯安一笔钱。我在帕洛奥图找了一处房子，装修好，然后让她们免费住在里面。她母亲送她去最好的学校读书，费用也是由我来承担的。我努力把事情做好。但如果让我重来一次的话，我肯定会做得更好。

Once the case was resolved, Jobs began to move on with his life—maturing in some respects, though not all. He put aside drugs, eased away from being a strict vegan, and cut back the time he spent on Zen retreats. He began getting stylish haircuts and buying suits and shirts from the upscale San Francisco haberdashery Wilkes Bashford. And he settled into a serious relationship with one of Regis McKenna’s employees, a beautiful Polynesian-Polish woman named Barbara Jasinski.

这场官司结束之后，乔布斯继续着自己的生活——尽管没有脱胎换骨，但在有些方面，他确实成熟了不少。他戒掉了迷幻药，不再奉行严格的素食主义，也减少了花在禅修上的时间。他开始剪时髦的发型，到旧金山的高档服装店威尔克斯·巴什福德（WilkesBashford）购置西装和衬衫。他还和里吉斯·麦肯纳的一名员工开始了一段正式的恋爱关系，这个女人名叫芭芭拉·亚辛斯基（BarbaraJasinski），是一个有波利尼西亚和波兰血统的美女。

There was still, to be sure, a childlike rebellious streak in him. He, Jasinski, and Kottke liked to go skinny-dipping in Felt Lake on the edge of Interstate 280 near Stanford, and he bought a 1966 BMW R60/2 motorcycle that he adorned with orange tassels on the handlebars. He could also still be bratty. He belittled waitresses and frequently returned food with the proclamation that it was “garbage.” At the company’s first Halloween party, in 1979, he dressed in robes as Jesus Christ, an act of semi-ironic self-awareness that he considered funny but that caused a lot of eye rolling. Even his initial stirrings of domesticity had some quirks. He bought a proper house in the Los Gatos hills, which he adorned with a Maxfield Parrish painting, a Braun coffeemaker, and Henckels knives. But because he was so obsessive when it came to selecting furnishings, it remained mostly barren, lacking beds or chairs or couches. Instead his bedroom had a mattress in the center, framed pictures of Einstein and Maharaj-ji on the walls, and an Apple II on the floor.

当然，乔布斯的骨子里还留有几分孩子般的叛逆。他和亚辛斯基、科特基三人喜欢到斯坦福大学附近的280号州际公路边的赛尔特湖里裸泳，乔布斯还买了一辆1966年产的宝马R60/2摩托车，在车把上挂上了橙色流苏。他还是很惹人讨厌。他瞧不起餐厅里的女侍者，经常把食物退回并称之为“垃圾”。1979年，在公司的第一次万圣节派对上，他穿上袍子扮成了耶稣基督，他自认为这是带有些许讽刺意味的有趣行为，但却招致诸多白眼。即使在他刚刚开始的居家生活中，他也表现出一些怪癖。他在洛斯加托斯山区买下了一间不错的房子，在家中布置了一幅马克斯菲尔德·帕里什（MaxfieldParriah）的画、一台博朗咖啡机和双立人刀具。但由于他在挑选家具的时候太过挑剔，家中大多数地方还是空的，没有床，没有椅子，也没有沙发。在他的卧室里，中间放着一张床垫，还有镶在相框中的爱因斯坦和马哈拉杰-吉的照片，地上还有一台AppleII。